Posts Tagged ‘religion’

Times this doctor took me seriously: 0

Bub would not leave some of the items that are a part of Baby’s First Altar (as I jokingly like to call it) alone, so now I have to put certain things out of reach when I know that I’m going to be running errands and he could sneak into my room long enough to… do things that he should not be doing. He is not amused about that, but I am also not amused at the fact that the garbage disposal and some of the pipes leading from it out of the house — not many, thank goodness, but some — had to be removed and cleaned because he stuck things down the garbage disposal thinking that it was funny. We had a long talk about how he needs to leave other people’s belongings alone, not to touch them unless he has been granted permission to do so (and “Baby’s First Altar” does not mean that he has carte blanche permission to muck about with things, especially if doing so means that he can damage them), and to please, please leave the garbage disposal alone, especially because this is not the first time that he has done this. He has a knack for shoving things down it right before he goes to bed, and then it gets used that following morning, and crunch. Why, child?

I am also no longer on the inhaled steroid that was causing me issues because my insurance would not cover the nebulized one that… wasn’t. Instead, we are trying a twice-daily actuated inhalation that also replaces the one that I was nebulizing. Because of the pandemic, we also want me to stay off of prednisone unless I absolutely can not avoid it. So because people, and politicians, could not and can not commit to staying at home to ride this out until it is much less of a concern, we had to make this decision for me. Sigh.

I see my neurologist later on this month, which I am not a fan of. Not only did she upend my prior neurologist’s plan of care for me, but she passively-aggressively charted it in my medical files. If it were easy to change to a new neurologist, I would do so. Depending on how future check-ups go, I may actually consider changing to the pain management clinic in this city and see if they can completely take on my care.

I need better subject lines here, I really do.

One of the things that I did with my economic stimulus payment is go ahead and get myself a pair of prescription sunglasses made that I intend on keeping the frames of for as long as these frames are willing to last me… so basically, for as long as possible. These should help with my migraines, because at the very least they will give me the option of being able to put them on and still see whenever things get too bright for me (and let’s face it, having that option is always comfortable whenever I’m having a migraine). Before, it was either “put on my sunglasses and not be able to see because my vision really is that bad without my glasses” or “keep my glasses on and suffer because of the brightness of everything else”. I also got the kids some more books, another Lokai cause bracelet that had come out that Monster didn’t already have, and after reading Shiva Honey’s The Devil’s Tome, decided to make what I have affectionately begun to call “Baby’s First Altar” in my room since I got a The Satanic Temple flag, hung it up, and Bub has been intrigued in a good way by it ever since. You can’t make this kid like what he doesn’t like, which he inherited from me.

I think all I have to do is quote this part of the summary of The Devil’s Tome:

The Devil’s Tome: A Book of Modern Satanic Ritual explores non-theistic Satanic ritual as a means for healing, empowerment, and community building.

I always take small steps, especially when it comes to the kids. Why not start with just an altar?

Nice candles (that we will not be burning for now, because reasons… Bub), to include tealight, a small grimoire (“Baby’s First Grimoire”, even if baby now comes up to my chin), chakra stones, because they look nice, a chakra grid kit, crystal grid kit, and Metatron’s grid kit (since if Bub is having a meltdown, laying them out and naming them might help calm him down, and they are geometrically pleasing), some stones (this can be educational, and the same principle applies), and incense (that we will quite likely not actually light even though I have a few N95 respirator masks due to this pandemic, but it will still set the overall mood)…

And like I’ve said, Bub doesn’t do anything that Bub himself doesn’t want to do. There have been plenty of occasions where Bub hasn’t wanted to do something that I’ve wanted to do. Any interest that Bub conveys in something is organic. He has never been the kind of kid to convey interest in something because someone else has or is, which is actually something that I have fostered in him (and his brother) over the years. He just happens to be the considerably more stubborn child, which has made for “if I am interested in something, it is because I personally want to do this, not because anyone else wants me to do it or is making me do this”.

I’ve gotten back into scheduling some posts here.

A partial retcon of previous posts: I can see myself happily dating a Satanist that affiliated with The Satanic Temple (or had no formal “affiliation” at all) regardless of whether or not they do ritual, and how much, because of the things that we would already have in common. I guess the only straw that might break the camel’s back is if they required that someone engage in ritual with them at a certain frequency and could not be fulfilled with or happy in a relationship that did not meet that frequency(, although I honestly can not see this happening with anyone affiliating with The Satanic Temple and would like to come out and say as much). But I would probably be happier dating a Satanist that either had no formal affiliation, or affiliated with The Satanic Temple, than one that was formally affiliated with the Church of Satan because there would be a lot less disagreement there, as I’ve addressed in previous posts. I don’t want to feel like I’m a potential number to convert to someone’s side. I’ve already had that happen once, and once is too much.

In the interim, I’ve taken to finding a different way to organize the necklace collection that I’ve gotten… over the years, even though wearing them is a challenge since I have bad enough skin allergies to the point that things discolor my skin. When I’ve taken copious amounts of Benadryl and am on prednisone though, the effect is less. Ironically, that is something that I’ve noticed. So why not exploit those time periods a little bit?

Something that I want to do at some point.

Since I have a copy of all major Bibles here in the house (and various… study guides, and supplementary materials, that go along with them), I want to actually take the time to read all of them cover to cover. Whenever the time does come that I actually commit to that and start it, I want to post about it here — I’m not sure when I’ll schedule the posts, as I’ve begun to get back into the habit of scheduling some posts to go out in advance, although it would be ironic if I scheduled some of these posts to go out on Sunday mornings.

Although it is said, and is generally true, that non-believers have read more of and know the Bible(s) more than their believing and worshiping counterparts, I want to go one(, two, or three…) further. I can see this actually causing migraines, having to read and stomach the contents of these — with the exception of LaVey’s The Satanic Bible and counterparts — although I already know in advance that it’s not going to convert me anywhere else other than to more fortified Satanism. I’ll post more about it here when I’ve committed to a starting date to this and have begun to plan out in what order I will read what “holy” text.

The Church of Satan vs. The Satanic Temple.

When I first began to explore Satanism, I was drawn to the Church of Satan because I had (well, I should say have, heh) friends who are members of varying ranks of that… denomination? Church? However you accurately word that. Knowing that it was the first true religion devoted to Satanism founded and that I did have several friends that were members initially drew me to it, although the initial cost to join — even if it would only have to be paid once and it was good for life — put me off. However, engaging with various… dissidents of Jake Eakin’s on his Facebook wall, and also having friends who were members of The Satanic Temple, also introduced me to them, and I began to do some research on The Satanic Temple after their documentary, Hail Satan? was referenced (which, I’m not even going to lie, intrigued me in an extremely good way… because not only do I now have a copy of that, I’ve been watching it in piecemeal after the boys are in bed during the evenings, and I am making progress getting through it given our sometimes downright busy daily schedules). I realized that I appreciated The Satanic Temple’s more left-leaning politic stances and the fact that they were not afraid to get political or litigate in court over matters that were important to them as a whole, and I found their members more personable and easier to talk to (at least those I’ve spoken to).

I also have a copy of the book that was written about them that I was given as a late Mother’s Day present.

I’m not one of these who is going to go “my denomination is better than your denomination,” even though some people… do that, I guess. The Satanic Temple is just the… branch, or denomination, of Satanism that best meets my personal needs. Personally, I feel that Satanists have more common ground than they have things that drive them apart. And Baphomet is adorable, especially when he’s drawn and colored in pastel. As I’ve mentioned before, some people see joining “the proper faction” as a prize to be won — I see that reminiscent of Final Fantasy X-2, and I’m more content to find that someone actually is a Satanist and that person to be one less person that I have to worry about aggressively trying to evangelize me into theism, especially Christianity, who has denominations that are particularly notable for their apologetics. If that makes me a bit of an eccentric Satanist, well then so be it. Being a Satanist is eccentric enough. I don’t mind.

1 5 6 7 8 9 12