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Since I have the time to make this post…

I am continuing to look for video games to get Bub for his birthday, even though I am mindful of the fact that our Nintendo Switch’s microSD card… is low on space, and since it has Animal Crossing on it, I definitely do not want to do anything to that and wind up corrupting the data on the save file for that and messing up our island. I just don’t. So I am not even going to take the remotest of risks there, at least not until the interest surrounding Animal Crossing dies all the way down and it’s not even a game that he is remotely interested in. And to be honest, I do like the game as well! I’m a bit less interested in it than I was when it first came out (aren’t all of us? doesn’t this happen to all of us at some point?), but I do like it, and I do like this one better than New Leaf, I’m not even going to lie. But the same people who used to push me into playing games for longer than I wanted to aren’t in my life right now… which may contribute to a lot of why I enjoy this more.

In my spare time, I’ve joined a few other Discord servers (an Animal Crossing one for players over the age of twenty-five, and a Satanism server for members of The Satanic Temple). I am not the best at managing multiple Discord servers, but I am trying here. Right now, The Satanic Temple’s server is my favorite server.

Can we blame the pandemic for this one here?

I’m not sure if this happened as a result of COVID-19, or it just… happened because we’re almost the middle of the way through the year, but I can’t find any video games for Bub right now that I haven’t already pre-ordered for him. I’ve been looking for some more games to get him since his birthday is coming up, and I’ve already pre-ordered the ones that I want to get him, which is making the whole “get him more games for his birthday” thing a bit more difficult than I had originally anticipated it would be, but in good humor I am continuing to manage. (I am also beginning to look at the virtual reality set for the PlayStation 4 since we do not actually own one of those and he will turn ten soon, which means that he will actually be able to use one if he would so like for a few hours a day, and I don’t mind the kids having or using one if they would like to…)

Surprisingly, there aren’t that many virtual reality games out for the PlayStation 4, so I don’t actually know when I’m going to make this purchase. It might wind up being something that I get them for Christmas, because if I do get this for them, I’m not going to do it for only a few games. I’m going to want this purchase to matter in the long run and I’m going to want to have gotten several games for it. Fun for the whole family.

I mean, it’s a small thing and I am definitely not complaining about it on a large scale, but I’m wondering if the video game industry will be affected by this on a much larger scale depending on how long this goes on.

I know that some states are trying to rush headlong into “going back to work” and “revitalizing the economy”, but there are things like these where people are obviously not going to want to rush back to work on if they can avoid it (obviously not essential services, not in the least), and that really got me wondering.

This came up on my TimeHop today, so…

This is the last picture that I took of Bub and my mom while she was still alive, and this was the closest that he would come to her. He had no problem playing on the bed before she was brought home from the hospital, and he had no problem playing on it after she was… removed from the house by the funeral home after she died. The fact that he wouldn’t come close to her (and didn’t want much of anything to do with her even on FaceTime chats when she was hospitalized, monitored by me since after the point that I mentioned in entries chronicling what she did, I severely limited their interactions for his sake) spoke volumes to everyone who saw that picture and knew the circumstances in which it was taken. For the most part, I’ve forgotten about her— what she looked like, especially what hair, what she sounded like, and bar the last six months of her life and what caused me to want to forget everything about her, what she was like. Effective tomorrow, marking the fact that she’s been gone for a year, I’m going to make it a point to actively forget as much about her as humanly possible, which is exactly what I want to do. There is no positive to “outweigh”.

Tell me that he doesn’t know how she felt about him, and that he couldn’t put the pieces together.

Just look at his face here in this picture. “He didn’t understand” my ass. He understood every bit perfectly.

Since I have the chance to post before bed…

I would be gaming more if I didn’t have… well, migraines. But the good news is that I see my neurologist at the end of the month to get refills on the medications of mine that need refills, and I tell him which medications of mine are no longer therapeutic and no longer work in the hopes that my medication regimen can be altered to make them more therapeutic. I already know that for reasons that I will be mentioning in this blog later, as soon as we can have it ordered and insurance approves it, I will be wearing an ambulatory EEG — my goal is to wear it “until we catch what we need to catch”, so I’m hoping that insurance actually lets me do that. I’ve never done an ambulatory EEG, and what we need to come up I don’t want to have hide.

I’m hoping that the pandemic doesn’t stall insurance approval of that request, and that my new Medicaid HMO actually approves that request. There’s also the possibility of having another CT scan done with contrast, which my neurologist had been wanting my old Medicaid HMO to do for awhile that they kept arbitrarily denying for the most asinine of reasons even though the first CT scan that was done under my first neurologist actually found something that she (and now, my new neurologist, since she decided not to come back to work after maternity leave) wanted to follow up with… I mean, if the initial CT scan actually found something one might think that insurance would approve a CT scan with contrast to find out more about it, and quite possibly subsequent scans to follow it, but my old Medicaid HMO was arbitrarily denying all subsequent requests for more than the initial scan, which was just absurd. So I guess we will see how this goes if my current neurologist decides to put in a request for another scan, assuming he didn’t give up there.

In the interim, I have noticed that we are actually running low in space on our microSD card, although I don’t want to take that out because our Animal Crossing game is on that and I don’t want to run the risk of corrupting our save data given that we have gotten fairly far in that game. I have heard horror stories…

Branching off from Hexennacht: moving forward.

In case you need to know what Satanic Panic is: here
In case you need to know what Hexennacht is: here

One of the things that I wanted to take the time to touch on, as someone who gradually “came out” in her blog as a Satanist (affiliated with The Satanic Temple, at that), is that even though we may have, comparatively speaking, made strides toward being more safely and easily being able to declare our religious affiliations in some places — or lack thereof, depending on how you want to word them — it can still be dangerous to “out” yourself as a religion that is not the majority religion, especially under the Trump Administration (and especially if it becomes clear through whatever means that you are LBGT, or as I have sometimes worded it, “not an able-bodied, white-passing man”). Outing yourself as a Satanist is perhaps the diciest of all, and it can potentially have repercussions in child custody cases and job applications if it is revealed in the former or disclosed in the latter. One word of advice, though: you do not have to disclose your religious affiliation on a job application, even if the interviewer asks… and for them to “require” that is illegal.

However, plenty of divorced or separated parents — and I mean plenty — have fought over the most banal of religious issues as they pertain to their child or children, so for one parent to be outed as a Satanist, or volunteer the information that they are one, is pretty much analogous to throwing a hand grenade into the proceedings if you ask me… at least assuming that both parents are active participants in their children’s lives and are litigating with the intent to be able to have an equal say in the upbringing of said children’s lives. Sometimes it is actually court-ordered that one parent is to be the parent that has “final decision-making say” in the religious instruction of the children (or, conversely, if this becomes something that it is clear that the parents will never agree on, that both parents are forbidden from making their children “active, registered participants” in their religious denomination… which basically means that they can not baptize them or enroll them). However, for one parent to be the individual that is granted that final decision-making say is only generally done when the child (or children) have had a history of being brought up in that religion so that they can continue to be brought up in it to give them the continued regularity of that religion’s influence, especially when their lives will be shifted with the divorce or separation of their parents. Unless, of course, it’s Satanism. And then it’s, like I’ve said, like throwing a really judgmental hand grenade into the proceedings nearly all of the time because of nearly everyone’s misconceptions as to what Satanism entails.

And yet perhaps it is the most ironic of all that Satanists are generally the least judgmental and pushy.

Why are there no good games to pre-order now?

I’ve pre-ordered everything that I want to pre-order Bub, especially for his birthday.

Looking for some games to “top off” what I’ve already pre-ordered, I can’t find anything additional to get him that he would like, which is just ironic. And in the interim, I’ve been blocked from posting or commenting to Facebook for a week (which technically started a few days ago) because someone weaponized Facebook’s reporting algorithm and had his friends report comments of mine because they did not like what I had to say during discussion on his Facebook wall. This is actually something that I do not like on Facebook, how it seems like Christian or Republican white men can “game” the algorithm to silence their dissidents, but you can never report them back for valid reasons. It bothers me that sometimes they can say the most profane, worst things, and “it is never a violation of Community Rules/Standards”, but I can simply call someone a stupid Christian man and that’s suddenly an automatic violation of the rule against “hate speech”. Alright.

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