The title is the biggest banger of all in this post and should pretty much say everything.

What about autism makes people think that it’s a child’s disorder, that only children can have it? These children inevitably do grow up and become adults. More and more adults are getting diagnosed autistic because they have children or family members who are or have (and sometimes significant others who go “hey, I see a lot of myself in you, maybe you’re…”). If I want accommodations, or for people to understand how I am the way I am, it’s best for me to disclose that I am autistic. But if I disclose that I am autistic, some people treat me like I am inferior to them, like I know less than them, or like I’m a child when I am not. They act like I have greater access needs and barriers than I do, and sometimes they do these things in really obvious ways which frustrates me if not infuriates me depending on how they do it. It’s just really frustrating.

Like… don’t get me wrong. I’ve always wondered why my mind seemed to operate differently from that of those around me, so to be diagnosed autistic did not come as a surprise to me at all. Some of my friends who are autistic adults actually told me that they knew I would be diagnosed autistic before I was actually diagnosed on paper. But it seems like adults who aren’t autistic don’t always treat autistic adults with the respect that they deserve as human beings, and that’s got to go before 2030, I swear. I’m that impatient.

I can already see there’s going to be a lot of glamorization and sanitizing of Queen Elizabeth II’s regency.

So I was finally able to get radiofrequency ablation done on the other side of my head. The only downside to that was the technician accidentally injecting the nerve itself with the numbing agent and the steroid rather than the space beside it, which meant that he had to go back in and numb up the pain that he caused the nerve by injecting it with… well, anything, because injecting a nerve with a needle to begin with is going to hurt. As the pain relief and steroid injections have worn off, I have come to be able to feel that side of my head again… to include where the nerve in question was literally poked by the needle (which was not fun, is not fun, and will not be fun for awhile, I suspect) and have not been able to turn my head to varying degrees of the right side. I’m well aware that to start to feel better from these things, you have to get over the hurdle of the nerve feeling really uncomfortable as it realizes you tried to scramble it… but one of my nerves accidentally got poked with a needle, so I’ve been taking pain medication as appropriate to counter that.

Fun times, said no one! And I fully do intend on getting back to streaming once I feel better from this, and once I stop having migraines every single day because that is the place that we are now at. Either that or I need to find better ways of coping with this level of frequency and intensity although I dislike doing so…