This is Supernatural fandom wank in case it happens to confuse any of you. I’m sorry!

A few days before I decided to write this post and have it publish, a Tweet that I had sent the CW criticizing their queer erasure and pointing out the trauma that the series finale caused was liked by a Twitter account that looked like it was the official Chaos Machine Productions Twitter account (Jensen and Danneel’s production company). I happened to catch it, and screenshot it, because I had my phone in my hand waiting for one of my kids to get out of occupational therapy. I tend to keep my phone on my person unless I am charging it because it is their lifeline to doctors, specialists, and therapists, and in case I have a seizure — I have non-convulsive epilepsy that is mostly nocturnal, but I want to be prepared for the possibility of seizures… no longer being nocturnal, or no longer being just nocturnal — I can contact someone that I know in person if I am the only adult in the house. They will then call, and I will hand the phone to my oldest son. I go apraxic during almost all of my seizures now, but I can still write at least one word (“seizure”), maybe two (“having seizure”), and I can certainly store an automated message on my phone. At any rate, I screenshot the whole thing because they unliked the Tweet seconds later, and I understand that sometimes people running multiple Twitter accounts — one for home, one for work — might accidentally like something on the work account that they… should not have, which lent credibility to initial speculation that this was real.

And I mean, the official Batwoman account for the CW followed me for like… six months at one point.

It is what it is. So yeah. Anyway.

I posted the screenshots to my Twitter account in the interest of sharing it with the fandom at large and seeing what some of them thought. The next thing I know, I’m suddenly drowning in Likes and Retweets— no, just kidding, I wasn’t actually drowning, I love most of you and I was braced for the possibility of these screenshots landing like that. I did turn off notifications on my phone at one point so that my kids could play on it and watch YouTube videos as both of them are keen on doing. They also know better than to check my social media because I don’t allow either of them on social media, and because most of it is fandom-related stuff and geekery anyway, so it would go right over their heads. (But for the record, I would like to state that I do not view anything on my phone that I would not want them to, were they able to do so, root through and find even if I had cleared my history. I mean, I could, and just clear my history… but I’m not comfortable with even the idea of that happening, so I don’t. I also clear my history out of force of habit, that way when I do want to use Safari to search for something, I’m not drowning in the searches of mine I already did or the websites that I could have cleared but didn’t. I’m just a bit smarter than Dean when it comes to phones…)

Anyway.

Well, after a fun-filled twenty-four hours (some of which I napped or slept during), that account eventually outed itself as a fan account and made it clear on that Twitter account that it was not the real Chaos Machine Productions account. Honestly, I feel like this should’ve been done sooner to avoid confusion.

That’s just me though.

I have decided that for my own mental health, I no longer wish to see anything from the Supernatural finale about… what happened to Dean, even pictures of him in Heaven or him driving Baby in Heaven. This includes not being exposed to, or listening to, the music that was playing in the background as it happened.

If this gets… fixed by subsequent work, such as a revival or a reboot, I may then see it differently.

So, for all maybe one of you who aren’t already in the know, Jared Padalecki had a temper tantrum on Twitter over the fact that he hadn’t been clued in about the Supernatural prequel that Jensen Ackles’ production company wants to take on. This would have been glorious if it weren’t childish and pathetic. The more I hear or read about Jared, the less I like him, even though I never quite minded Sam Winchester. It’s clear that he doesn’t know how to approach things like an adult would, let alone treat them like an adult would. He just whines until he gets what he wants (and that’s usually after siccing his fans, or “stans”, on whoever slighted him that day). There’s also the MLM — multi-level marketing scheme — that he’s now ass over tea-kettle for, which has some questionable ingredients like nootropics in one, melatonin in the other.

Nootropics are not, nor do they have to be, approved by the FDA (U.S. Food and Drug Administration), which means that at best the ingredients do nothing and are placebos, but at worst do something, meaning that an overdose on them — inadvertent as it may be — may be toxic or even life-threatening. Take phenibut, for instance. Phenibut is a nootropic. It is also very possible to overdose on phenibut because lower doses “don’t work” on some people, but higher doses will definitely yield toxic side-effects. It is also extremely easy to build up a tolerance to phenibut, meaning that people who do take it would need a higher dose for the same “therapeutic” effects, and that’s a lot of why phenibut is so easy to accidentally overdose on. The problem with the melatonin is that it is only over-the-counter in a handful of countries, meaning that Jared’s MLM can’t be sent abroad if someone is attempting to purchase the one with melatonin in it and… wait for it… their country has relegated melatonin to prescription-only or has laws in place regarding import of the drug (or any other similar drugs, for that matter). Although melatonin is markedly more difficult to overdose on, taking too much of it when you do not have the tolerance for it can yield such side-effects as daytime sleepiness and extreme tiredness hours after the fact (or the nap/sleep). This too isn’t something that people should dose themselves on, at least not without consulting a doctor or other similar medical professional.

Just because you are depressed (or mentally ill in another way) does not excuse you from taking responsibility for your actions, and siccing your fans (“stans”) on people who you feel have slighted you, only to half-heartedly attempt to pull them back when damage is actually being done (“I didn’t mean for that to happen!”) is the opposite of taking responsibility for your actions. More news at ten. Obvious cat is obvious.