January 2022 archive

21
Jan
2022

So I did it. I quit the fandoms that I was part of.

categories: personal, television shows; word count: 271 words

Anyone who said “you can only quit fandom when you’re dead” has clearly not met me.

None of this was out of malice though, and I want to make that abundantly clear.

I realized that fandom participation, even — perhaps especially — amongst those who shared common television shows or pairings with me was becoming increasingly more detrimental to my mental health. Being an admin on a Supernatural fandom and meta server, and doing the things that come with that and were supposed to bring me joy and satisfaction, was becoming increasingly more detrimental to my mental health. Something that was supposed to bring me joy and satisfaction was making me depressed and sad. I decided that I would no longer engage in things that actively contributed to these states of mind, so I “tendered” my resignation from fandom as a whole, quit Discord servers related to said fandoms, and exited Facebook groups for the same. This was kind of like what I did when Bub was like… all of two years old, I was active in fandoms, and then I decided that I didn’t want to participate in them so I simply dropped off of their maps and wasn’t really missed (which made me happy because I didn’t want to draw attention to myself doing this, although my presence in recent fandoms was such that I didn’t have a choice with it).

I don’t want to be asked questions about this or told that I could have handled matters differently.

In fact, I am actually already feeling better, so I know that this decision was the right one for me to make.

20
Jan
2022

For the sake of posting something, here’s a post.

categories: personal; word count: 247 words

After giving it a lot of thought, I’ve decided to join the Coven of Satan (and Queer Satanists) rather than affiliate with The Satanic Temple. There were certain things about The Satanic Temple that did not sit well with me, although I continue to like the work that Shiva Honey does within The Satanic Temple. It’s all really confusing. However, I feel like it’s the best thing for me to do right now — my values align with the Coven of Satan and Queer Satanists more than they do The Satanic Temple, so it only seems fitting and right that I affiliate myself with the coven (or group, or temple) that best fits those values. I think I’ll keep the flag that I have for The Satanic Temple in my room and the certificate that says that I am a member, but over time I may cover those up with Coven of Satan stuff. It all depends. I need to check their shop out sometime, heh.

And as for my birthday, which is coming up, all I want is Etsy gift cards. I want kandi bracelets and perler necklaces. I’m finally living the life that I want to live and dressing how I want to dress (as when my mother bought me clothes and jewelry, it was never anything that I could actually wear, and it was apparent that she was dressing the daughter that she didn’t have because I was not and never would be that person).

18
Jan
2022

But I mean, shouldn’t I have expected this?

categories: personal; word count: 160 words

Predictably, that comment that I reported to that dude’s Human Relations department “didn’t violate Facebook community standards”, even though his own job thanked me for reporting it to them and told me that the HR department and his manager would be speaking to him about the inappropriateness of things he said on his off time that reflected poorly on the job as a whole (which hilariously caused him to delete the entire comment as though none of it happened). This doesn’t surprise me though. Facebook didn’t take down a comment I’d reported like… eons ago, when it happened, where a man stated that he wanted to commit arson on a child support office with the workers inside, and then their Oversight Board literally refused to do anything about a violent threat. At this point, I don’t expect anything substantial from Facebook any more.

Facebook doesn’t like leftist advocates, especially when they are AFAB or women, and it really, really shows.

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