Posts Tagged ‘life’

10
Sep
2022

While I still remember to make this post…

categories: personal; word count: 220 words

Bub (and Monster) saw the developmental pediatrician for another check-up with them, and this was the first time that he had been told about Bub’s propensities to harm other people during meltdowns. He agreed with me that this was concerning and needed to be dealt with by means of medication, and seeing that Bub had already been put on Risperdal at his last visit with him, chose to increase the dose to .5mg in the morning and .5mg at night. If, for whatever reason, that doesn’t work, he can take 1mg in the morning or 1mg at night. He’s also being put on guanfacine to help level his mood out a bit more since he’s actually caused me to need to go to urgent care and the emergency room as a result of these meltdowns, with half of a pill being the starting dose and standing instructions to go up to a full pill per day if he needs it. His developmental pediatrician said that I could read the dosing instructions on that when I picked up the prescription for him and call them if I had any questions. I’m glad that this is being taken seriously by his care team and all of those who interact with him. I’m hoping that the changes to his medication regimen go well.

08
Sep
2022

None of this is actually a bad thing here.

categories: personal; word count: 535 words

Since we’re still in a pandemic, people seem to have this misconception about me that I’m going to continue to be as available online as I’ve been since the start of it… when that is not going to be the case. Like yeah, I’ll still be online (even if a lot of it is technically me idling in apps like Discord, leaving it open in case anyone wants to leave a message), but I’m not going to be online as much as I have been. And the only exception to letting myself idle on Discord as I’ve mentioned will be when I’m streaming, because I don’t need to have a whole bunch of notifications go off in the background — I’ll get to them when I get to them, but it won’t be while I’m actually streaming. I don’t see this as a bad thing, though. There’s always going to be a point at which I just don’t want to communicate any more with people than I’ve already been doing, or have been doing up until that point — this is one of the reasons why I’m reluctant to join voice chats on Discord and why, as I’ve said, “the Internet stays on the Internet”. And I know I’ve mentioned this in here, but I almost never actually meet up with people from the Internet. I would have to know you for a really long time first.

As I’ve mentioned, the last person that I met up with that I didn’t know in person, who was not from this area, was that guy that I had been in a long-distance relationship with. I know that I’ve mentioned it in here before, but I had absolutely no idea that he and his mother were doing the things I’ve written about, let alone capable of. No one that I knew had any idea, either. It actually surprised a lot of the people that I knew in person who knew that I had been in this relationship to be told that not only did I have to report his mother to the state, but I also had to aid in the report that someone else would be making to the state as well (the narcotics theft, as I had informed the sister of the person that he had been “acquiring” these from, and all I could do was provide her family with the information that I did). These things were supposed to be “secrets”, I guess, kept “in the family”… but I didn’t feel comfortable with that level of deception, and I didn’t want to be in a relationship with or even around people like this. I did what I had to do turning both of them in for them.

The fact that this even happened — as in, that these people were actually capable of these things, as no one would ever even have begun to suspect it had they not already been made aware of them — was actually enough to sour people that I knew in real life from “meeting people off (of) the Internet, because you would never know if these people were who they really said they were”… and I mean, I can’t blame them for that.

06
Sep
2022

I need to come up with better subject lines.

categories: personal; word count: 245 words

Some of these people want me to return to Discord servers that I’ve left.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, I do like some of them… but there was a reason that I walked away from all of the drama, all of the negativity, and made it extremely difficult to find me for twelve years. As I’ve said in previous posts, I’m too old for this shit (some of the shit that gets pulled in these servers), and I don’t want to participate in the drama or be drug into it. When COVID-19 finally becomes endemic and the pandemic as we know it is over, I’m going to be chatting in Discord a lot less anyway… I’m going to be doing more gaming and streaming, and I’m going to be busier in real life. I’m a bit conflicted when it comes to all of this, though.

I’m still sold on not meeting the majority of people that I talk to on the Internet in person unless it’s at something like TwitchCon, VidCon… you get the picture. Decades ago, I did meet someone who I had been in a long-distance relationship with, and I ended up having to turn his mother in for felony-level food stamp fraud and him in for narcotics theft. Prior to this, no one that I knew had any idea that these skeletons were in his (and his family members’) closet, and almost everyone I knew actually liked him, which was surprising.

04
Sep
2022

A whole bunch of things crammed into one post.

categories: personal; word count: 309 words

First things first: I’m waiting for my migraines to begin to improve. So yeah, still waiting on that one. During the radiofrequency ablation (RFA) that was done on the right side of my head, the technician accidentally pierced the nerve with the shot meant to numb it rather than injected the lidocaine beside it… and that was a ten-out-of-ten banger until he could sufficiently numb up that entire side of my head, and I mean that in the worst possible way. I know that it was a mistake and that these things just happen some of the time, so I’m not mad at him for what was clearly a simple mistake. It just means that I have to wait a little while longer until the pain on that side of my head is ameliorated, assuming that it even ameliorates at all. We’ll see…

Secondly: The terms “abandonware” and “fair use act” do not mean what certain people think they mean, or what certain people have been deluding themselves into thinking that they mean. I’ve been in correspondence with the copyright holder of… one such entity (although you could also call them the owner of the intellectual property in question, and that wouldn’t be wrong either), and not only have these contacts clarified some information for me — namely that you can not claim that something is abandonware because it is the older version of a current program, and accepting money for any reason as part of this project means that you are profiting off of someone else’s work — but have solidified the fact that I am not going to participate in any projects that are not iron-clad in their legality. If this means that I do not participate in any more “projects” like this any more, so be it. I’d rather not take unnecessary risk here, especially as a streamer.

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