Archive of ‘personal’ category

02
Jun
2020

This is me getting blocked by a state bishop.

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I think it might have been around the part where I mentioned that I was happy and relieved not to have to attend Mass with my ex’s family any more (it’s been almost a full decade now), and that when his family was literally forcing me to attend church functions with them that I was literally telling him that I did not want to go to, I was bringing my PSP with me and playing it on silent in the arm of my sweater when I was not caring for our child, ignoring everything that was going on the entire time to the point that I had to Google what actually goes on in Mass a decade later. I was “immersed” in Catholicism. I went to Masses with his family and various church functions and get-togethers (that I did not want to attend either). It didn’t make me believe in God or “see” that his church was “the one true religion” in any way, shape or form. I felt apathy toward attending, was bored at the idea of it bar the fact that I played video games to relieve that boredom and tune out what was going on around me, and was incensed and irate that I had to attend these things that I saw no point in attending since I was never voluntarily converting or following the doctrine of.

And I was right. I never did convert, none of us did, and we’re still not following the doctrine today. So…

01
Jun
2020

It all seems to be a matter of control here…

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It always seems to impress (Christian, religious) apologists whenever someone who was formerly atheist, or non-religious, converts to their religion, but it always seems to anger them, or incense them, when someone refuses “the call to conversion”, does not want to convert “in the face of evidence”, or turns from being someone that was particularly religious to someone that is no longer religious. I’ve become equal parts amused and worried by that as the years have gone on, although I would have to say that the “worried” part of it comes along more when it is men in positions of power exhibiting anger or feelings of incense or ire. It’s like their playbook, or rule book, doesn’t have a section in it for these kind of people — the “feel-good people” that “find God” or who “see the evidence before them”. And a lot of them actually say that “God has a plan for everyone,” and that “God will eventually call you to (church of their choice)”, so these are the very same kind of people who get angry when you continually reject their “call to conversion”, do not convert to the religion of their choice and… don’t come back to convert to their religion. They get even angrier when you speak out against it and do advocacy against the religion in question, or in my case, organized theistic religion as a whole. Maybe that’s why me finding Satanism when I did happened when it did. That’s not bad.

I can get behind the George Floyd protests, and even the riots, even though as a parent to two children who would be devastated if something happened to me I am neither actively protesting nor rioting (at least two people have actually lost eyes in these protests/riots alone, one being a journalist, and that’s frightening to simply type out… like, who thinks it’s a good idea to shoot someone’s eye out during one of these?!). I think I would make a good medic, though. Seriously. Police men need to stop killing black men. I hope to see these protests and these riots change the face of that, and for black men to stop dying at the hands of police men.

Especially in this country. Where it seems to be the only major problem, along with… oh, lack of gun control.

31
May
2020

I wonder how well that works out for these people.

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Well, I’m burning out on Animal Crossing in that I need to take a break from it. I expected that.

I am also laughing at the fact that I will soon have another screenshot of someone blocking me to add to my collection, because a state bishop actually blocked me after he started some shit on his Twitter page about how “Catholicism is the one true religion” (don’t these bishops all do this?) and I began talking in a reply thread with a fellow dissenter about how Bub’s father’s family literally made me attend Masses with them against my will — I’ve mentioned this here, though — and I began bringing my PSP with me to these Masses to play hidden on mute in the arm of my sweater, because as stated, I literally did not want to come to any of these church functions. I guess really religious people do not like to have it thrown in their face, even civilly, when aggressive evangelism results in adults being coerced, or forced, into doing things that they state to their then-significant others after the culmination of every one of these events that they do not want to do, or participate in, just to be told “my mother says that I have to pick you up and that you have to come to these”. I wonder how well that worked out for him — oh, wait. It didn’t. Not even remotely like you thought.

I love how these people can dish it but can’t take it… their apologetics game isn’t strong at all.

Do they think that “with enough exposure”, or “with enough immersion”, someone who has never believed in the existence of a supernatural who literally does not want to attend any of these events is suddenly going to go “oh, I see it now! You’ve been right all along” short of saying that out of coercion or fear and not authentically believing it? Well, that is not how this works. That is not how any of this works. I’m telling you.

30
May
2020

This isn’t an entirely bad thing, actually. I mean…

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I have joined the “esteemed” ranks of those who are blocked on both of Onision’s Twitter accounts.

He’s gone back to his fake “positivity”, so he’s blocking anyone who dissents with him or brings up the fact that he and his spouse’s neglect of their daughter led to him falling through her second story window and cracking her skull on the driveway pavement in multiple places… which was something that should never under any circumstances have been allowed to happen. She should have been watched by at least one parent, her bedroom should have been structured window, and her window shouldn’t even have been possible to open, let alone open like it was in the time period leading up to this accident. But all of this actually happened (and how they still have custody of their children continues to boggle my mind), and it was an inconvenience to him because he had to escort her to the emergency room, where he proceeded to literally send a barrage of BDSM Tweets from his phone as she lay there in emergent services, hurt and in pain. His children mean nothing more to him than results of his actual impregnation fetish and a way for him to control his spouse and keep them around. The writing on the wall is clear to almost everyone at this point.

29
May
2020

George Floyd’s life really did matter.

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I’ve been continuing to keep an eye on the news since I found out that this happened, and I’ve been reading about the protests and the riots. I’m on the side of the protestors and the riots. This shouldn’t have happened. This shouldn’t keep happening. People may be having to take to the streets protesting and rioting during a global pandemic, but this is what clearly has to happen if we are ever going to see any real change.

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