I’d been a member of it for months, but I only recently began interacting with other people on it.

It’s a Supernatural server dedicated to two things: good discourse about the show and great fun.

I didn’t know that I would fit in to a server as well as I did until I began chatting on it, making friends that would follow me elsewhere to other social media platforms (such as Twitter), and immersing myself in a group of people that I fundamentally had a lot of things in common with. Admittedly, due to migraine medications my nuance about the show is a bit rusty — it’s also harder for me to come up with some of the words that I want to use, that I would otherwise have used, so I’ve stuck to the mainchat in the server (and the “salt chat”, which is a particular favorite of mine) and made it clear to anyone who might be curious that before I get into more detailed conversation, I need to be able to find the words that I would want to use better first. That may come with time, being on Gabapentin for as long as I have been, or I may continue to be at the level that I am now… which isn’t totally undesirable because, as I always say, “it could be worse”.

I don’t have to worry about “being too much of a fangirl of the show” on this server, though.

This server encourages discourse on the show from nearly all walks (and all “ships”) as long as it is kept civil.

I was known as the “Heller secretary”, and now I am the “office manager”, an adorably hilarious upgrade.

I didn’t queue a post to go up today, even though I have posts ready for the next several days.

For some reason, composing and scheduling a post for today —this day — nearly managed to slip my mind.

In relevant news, I kept informed about the virtual panel that Supernatural actors Jared Padalecki (Sam) and Jensen Ackles (Dean) held. Upon finding out how it was transpiring, I actually regret having done so, even regretting the effort that I made to stay on top of how it was going. Almost no mention was made of fellow co-star and lead Misha Collins (Castiel) to the point that it became clear that the subject of him was taboo.

It’s becoming clearer that the executives want to sanitize the show, making it about two brothers who traveled the country hunting, forgetting that for a decade they had a sidekick in the form of an angel of the Lord. That’s a fairly big thing to… forget, or miss. But the fact that no questions seemed to be permitted about Castiel’s confession of love to Dean, or even his fate, did not escape me. I could tell that the omissions were intentional. The show executives did not appear to want Castiel talked about, and the only reason that I say “appear to” here is because I would be delighted to be proven wrong. But do I think I’m going to be proven wrong? No, not quite. This is why, as I’ve said, I’m staying in it for the “Supernatural family” and the fans. I’m not going to give the executives another dollar of mine if this is really how things are going to go.

I have regrets about how I spent some of the day that panel was on, and keeping informed was that regret.