11
Aug
2020

Nostalgia bop for the ages: Kickle Cubicle.

categories: arcade; word count: 210 words

This is definitely something that the Gen Z kids won’t get. I was practically raised on this game, though, back when the Nintendo Entertainment System (NES) was the most recent console out. And to tell the truth, I’m surprised that this game hasn’t been included for digital download on things like the Virtual Console for the Wii even in spite of its relative obscurity (I mean, a lot of the older Castlevania games have, even in spite of the fact that the Castlevania franchise is a much more popular franchise, but I’m about to get into why I think it should have been), because the difficulty of the game is right in that sweet spot of making you want to come back and finish it, but not being so hard that you can’t. It is also, to this day, one of the most adorable games that I have ever played… and I’m in my thirties, having practically grown up on video gaming, having seen almost all of the consoles since their inceptions, so I don’t take saying that lightly. At some point in the future, I would just love to be able to snag this game for digital download somewhere, play it, and play it with my child. Enough said.

09
Aug
2020

Oh, how I miss the website known as Entrecard.

categories: blog maintenance; word count: 123 words

Back when I had another blog, there used to be this website called Entrecard, which was the literal equivalent of a blog “calling card” or a business card for your blog. You could “drop” your blog’s business card onto other sites that ran Entrecard, thereby exposing your blog to other people that ran Entrecard on their blog, which got your blog more hits and views… that is, until Entrecard suddenly stopped working.

The website has, for whatever reason, actually been down for a really long time now.

I’ve wondered what has happened to it. It’s a shame that something that was so successful randomly stopped working, because I would have liked to resume using it with this blog if it were still functional…

08
Aug
2020

Hello, I’m thirty-four. Monogamy makes me sad.

categories: personal; word count: 286 words

I used to say “monogamy bores me and I find it dull”, but I think I’m going to steal a few lines from Kat Blaque now (who I’ve recently discovered is polyamorous thanks to a friend linking me to her videos, which made my day one evening), and state that I find it unreasonable that I be expected to give all of myself to one person, that we do not expect just one friend of ours to fulfill all of our needs, and that anyone who expects us — especially a polyamorous person — to give all of themselves to one person, or tries to require it, is toxic, and that person needs to have themselves be distanced from or avoided. But that’s just my take.

I have never successfully done a monogamous relationship because, for the longest time, I assumed that I had to “find some way to make one work”, and this literally came at the detriment of all of my monogamous relationships because I did not know (and for awhile, was not even made aware) that there were options that… wait for it… were not monogamy. I owe this to cultural and religious upbringing, especially because growing up when and where I did, this was not mentioned as an option. Once I realized that I was polyamorous, and that I needed to date in this relationship configuration, eschewing monogamy from that point forward (and not allowing men to “make exceptions for me”, which I could write a completely separate post on and actually intend on doing so), life began running much more smoothly for me and for all involved (my “comfortable amount” is surprisingly two) parties. Some people just do not “work well” with monogamy.

07
Aug
2020

What I have been doing when I’ve had time…

categories: personal; word count: 305 words

Because of the kindness of the person who set me up the family tree that they did on Ancestry, I’ve… come to the conclusion that the half-aunts (I’m fairly certain that they are my half-aunts now based on their ages, even though Ancestry has both of them pegged as my first cousins) are sisters that my dad has. According to Ancestry, my mother only has one sister, and she might not even be alive any more. So far, neither of these elusive half-aunts have responded to me on Ancestry. I knew going into this that I might be the “hidden relative” to some people because of the holes present in my own family history, so I’m fine with some of the people that I reach out to on these sites, for whatever reason, choosing not to reach out to me.

Meanwhile, there are a few people who actually periodically wonder if I’ve “forgiven my mom yet”, as though one day I will magically do so… so I’d like to bring up the fact that I’ve actually gotten rid of the possessions of mine that she gave me, such as jewelry, if I haven’t already mentioned it here. I find this to be cathartic, and the act of doing so has brought me even more peace. And of course, none of the jewelry that she ever bought me was worth anything monetarily. But it brings me peace not to own anything that she ever bought me as a gift from this point forward, because that is one less reminder that I have of her around the house.

As time has passed, I’ve continued to forget more and more about her, which has been nothing but good.

What she looked like. What she looked like with hair. What she sounded like. Her presence here in my home.

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