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Post-sepsis syndrome is a rollercoaster, folks.

It is definitely not a rollercoaster I want to be on, but here we are.

This happens sometimes, and if you get what I mean, I want it to… stop happening.

With the supplementary medication that I was prescribed after my discharge from the hospital, there have been times where I’ve felt pretty good. There have also been times where I’ve crashed, and where I spend time (since it’s the weekend and all) napping in my bed hoping that this ameliorates. But I know that if I feel worse, or that if I keep feeling worse, to head back up to the hospital… you know, the one that tried to bill me as CPR was being administered on me and I was being paddled and shocked back to life and back to sinus rhythm. Luckily for me I have a great support system that is willing to help me out as I recuperate and get back to health, and I’m thankful for that. I just want these symptoms to stop so that I can get back to my life, get back to doing the things that I love, and spend more time with my kids. Right now, I’ve been spending a bit less time with them because I don’t want them to see me sick and weak, which my support team agrees is completely acceptable. Everyone’s emphasis is on me getting better and me getting back to, well, me…

I managed to pick up the… parcel that I was supposed to pick up while I had pain medication in my system.

This is a backdated post because I forgot to write…

Post-sepsis syndrome is a very real thing, and it’s one that I am suffering from.

For me, the main problems are an inability to modulate my temperature, more migraines, and feeling tired, but I am very grateful that I was able to be brought back. At some point I’d like to write about the whole… process of that in as tender a manner I can manage because I feel like it should be written about. I’ve been wanting to resume streaming, and to stream more, but I’ve been exhausted. Apparently this is common when you have sepsis, and when you’re brought back to life for any reason, so I’ll just have to deal with it.

All of this is old hat at this point but it will do.

Sometimes the pain is tolerable… like when I’m being given IV treatment at the hospital. Good times!

Going home, though? As hours elapse? Not so much. Not nearly so much at all.

When both of the boys have woken up, I’m going to call my primary care physician’s weekend (“emergency”) line and explain this to him if I can get a hold of him. I shouldn’t have to be going up to the hospital several times in a row with results being like they are. I’d like to be able to speak. I’d like for any pain or discomfort to stay moderate, and Norco isn’t doing that right now. We’ll see how that goes when they have woken up and I have spoken to the man, because this could go any which way. I just want to be able to eat, drink, and speak with some degree of normalcy. I also need to set survivor’s benefits up for my family toward the end of the week given what happened to his father. I’ll get through it if I have to get through it, but being in a lot less pain will certainly help matters out. It will certainly make my speech sound clearer, which we do need!

Well, this has predictably went worse than I’d hoped.

I’ve seen the doctor a few times for the bite wound now, go home after being treated in the hospital, several hours elapse with the Norco that they give me and I am right back to the excruciating pain. Not understating.

It just dawned on me in that I just remembered that my primary care physician has an emergency, or off-call, number. Depending on how I feel by then I am really thinking that I should give that number a call. I just need to make it to where I can speak and be understood for the duration of the call, but I know that he will take me seriously. He has always taken my needs seriously. But this has been a spectacular taste of a weekend, even though I don’t blame my son at all for what he didn’t even mean to do and would never even think of blaming him. Not for a single solitary second. I need a weekend for y weekend if you get what I mean…

Tomorrow is going to be fun, I can just tell.

As I’m sure a lot of you already know, I was headbutt by my youngest son while I was eating and managed to bite my lip — hard — instead of the food I was supposed to bite down on. This hasn’t been healing the way I had expected or had wanted it to, I have been in substantial pain due to this injury, as I’d realized…

Tomorrow I see the doctor for it, and the game plan is to check my jaw to make sure that nothing substantial happened to that, to check the injury itself, and to prescribe pain medication to tide me over until it heals, which sounds fantastic to me. Although there will be a bit of a wait to see the doctor (a wait for my name to be called, I’m guessing), I’m ready. I want this looked at. I want to be in a lot less pain. In the wise words of… whomenever, let’s do this. I do hope that my pain is taken seriously though. I expect it to be at this doctor.

I want to get back on my feet and get back to doing the things I’ve been doing without, well, you know, pain.

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