Yesterday, I was finally able to get the COVID-19 vaccine at my local pharmacy!

Well, the one that’s closest to my house. That happens to be where I stop in to get groceries.

I got the Johnson & Johnson vaccine because it’s one and done, whereas the other two aren’t, and… if I do absolutely need prednisone again for any reason, it’s a lot more manageable to commit to staying off of it for fourteen days when I am otherwise doing well than to have to do that an additional time, or even two more times (I’ve heard that the Pfizer shot may be one that you need to take three times to achieve sufficient immunity, especially due to the Delta variant that has begun to predominate). The risks that it has are no higher than the risk of complications from the medical problems that I do have, so I wasn’t concerned about those — two of the last times that I was on prednisone, I got a localized Staph infection and what was likely to have been an H. pylori infection in my stomach from immunosuppression. Even though my intent is to stay off of prednisone for as long as I possibly can, ideally never needing it again because other things could have been substituted for it and were, I realize that there may be limited circumstances in which I may need it due to the severity of my asthma or frequency and severity of my migraines… so I’d like to plan for that. However, like I said, I would ideally like to stay off of prednisone for the rest of my life simply because my body can no longer tolerate the immunosuppression that it brings about. That is, well, my chief concern with prednisone.

I can tolerate the rest of the side effects of prednisone… the ones that I’ve had, anyway. Not the bad ones.

I’ve been having less seizures while I am awake, even by my standards. My guess is that I’m eventually going to have a larger one as a result of this, because that’s just how things happen with me. I almost — no, I actually do — prefer to have more consistent seizures while I am awake because then they tend to be smaller, but if I don’t have one and I don’t have one, it’s larger, almost as if to compensate. I may be having them during the night, because when I do remember having dreams, they are distorted and parts of them are frightening… and that’s almost always a sign that I’ve had a nocturnal seizure. They most definitely interfere with how rested I do — usually don’t — feel the following morning. I can almost always tell, heh.

Luckily, 2,700mg of Gabapentin per day makes things as bearable as they can be.

It’s adorable to explain to people on my governor’s Facebook page that no, I really can’t work. I am a liability to hire and have on the job because you can’t actively tell when I am having a seizure. I go apraxic during almost all of them now, meaning that I literally can not talk. If you’re really lucky, I can gesture to my head and say the word seizure, but that depends on exactly where the seizure hits my head. Almost all of the time, the seizures induce some level of panic because it is literally like throwing an egg at hot asphalt as hard as you possibly can, but all of this is happening in my head. If one hits — and I’m never quite sure when they will, although I do have an aura almost all of the time, and it gives me some warning when I start to go into aura — there’s absolutely no way that I can continue to f fulfill the duties and requirements of my job.