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I am slowly but surely getting better from this.

As I’m sure I’ve mentioned in previous posts, post-sepsis syndrome is a very real… thing that I’ve had since I began to get over sepsis, although it didn’t make itself as abundantly clear when I was discharged from the hospital. I didn’t quite feel like I was walking on water then, but I felt better than I did… I don’t want to say now, because I do feel better now, but for awhile leading up to now. It’s been a process that I’ve had to coast off of with the medications that I’ve been prescribed for pain and nausea, and justifiably so. I’ve had more migraines than I normally have, which hasn’t surprised me one bit. I’ve been in more systemic, body-wide pain than I thought I would be. Nausea has been kicking me in the tail end, although Pepto Bismol has been an absolute godsend allowing me to keep down necessary medications, working my way up to actual food.

I remain ever thankful to be here, even though some of the symptoms that I have to deal with have been difficult, or profoundly difficult, some of the time. Pain I can deal with. Pain is always something I’ve been able to soldier through. Nausea, on the other hand, has not been something that I have been able to deal with well. Or sufficiently, for that matter. Sickness, of course, remains miserable, solely mine to deal with….

Post-sepsis syndrome is a rollercoaster, folks.

It is definitely not a rollercoaster I want to be on, but here we are.

This happens sometimes, and if you get what I mean, I want it to… stop happening.

With the supplementary medication that I was prescribed after my discharge from the hospital, there have been times where I’ve felt pretty good. There have also been times where I’ve crashed, and where I spend time (since it’s the weekend and all) napping in my bed hoping that this ameliorates. But I know that if I feel worse, or that if I keep feeling worse, to head back up to the hospital… you know, the one that tried to bill me as CPR was being administered on me and I was being paddled and shocked back to life and back to sinus rhythm. Luckily for me I have a great support system that is willing to help me out as I recuperate and get back to health, and I’m thankful for that. I just want these symptoms to stop so that I can get back to my life, get back to doing the things that I love, and spend more time with my kids. Right now, I’ve been spending a bit less time with them because I don’t want them to see me sick and weak, which my support team agrees is completely acceptable. Everyone’s emphasis is on me getting better and me getting back to, well, me…

I managed to pick up the… parcel that I was supposed to pick up while I had pain medication in my system.

This is a backdated post because I forgot to write…

Post-sepsis syndrome is a very real thing, and it’s one that I am suffering from.

For me, the main problems are an inability to modulate my temperature, more migraines, and feeling tired, but I am very grateful that I was able to be brought back. At some point I’d like to write about the whole… process of that in as tender a manner I can manage because I feel like it should be written about. I’ve been wanting to resume streaming, and to stream more, but I’ve been exhausted. Apparently this is common when you have sepsis, and when you’re brought back to life for any reason, so I’ll just have to deal with it.

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