I am documenting this for the sake of documenting it, and I am timestamping it.
I feel uncomfortable in this organization and don’t know what to do.
Really uncomfortable… I’m going to ghost them or just quit at some point.
My gut feelings on issues like these have never been wrong. Some of them are nice and polite to me, but I regret joining this organization. It’s a bit of a shame given the fledgling talks that I’ve been in as I’ve been networking, and I think it’s going to turn into a situation where I ask these people to restrain their interest to me and not me plus the organization that I’m in. I am thankful for the interest, but can I say that I’m thankful for this opportunity? I regret it. I’m having a difficult time coming up with words that convey the depth of this.
