the blog of a disabled mother who likes to game, and "get in the pit"
Monster’s best female friend was taking ballet classes, and he wanted to be like her when he found out. I bought him this ballet leotard due to that and he absolutely loved it for as long as he could fit himself into it.
I have jammed to this song for absolutely forever now, so it is only fitting that I post it up here as well.
Discord lets you choose layouts if you have Nitro! I liked a lot of them but chose to go with this one.
And regarding what I wrote about in my last post: I would go so far as to say that the majority of my hobbies and interests are encapsulated in what I am — or am not — willing to talk about on Discord. (Notice that I’ve joined absolutely no fandom-related servers, and it’s going to stay that way for as long as I use this thing…)
Let’s just say that I am slightly more likely to want to discuss the fact that I do not believe in god, living in the Bible belt, than I am to want to discuss the “meta” of anything that has a fandom and I am fine with that.
Apparently if you Retweet a video that an actor in the Supernatural franchise has posted because you like the video, this sets off an entire chain of events whereby members of the fandom decide what “side” you’re on (do you “support” this person? are you “against?” this person?) and begin chainblocking you — as though they had never stopped in the first place — over this one thing. The seriousness to which these people take fandom, and some people take Retweeting (do you even capitalize that? someone let me know) or sharing a video that you like is more than absurd at this point. If it gets to the point — and it has gotten to the point — where I have to explain this to friends of mine that I grew up with, and they find it as awkward and weird as I am presently finding it, you’ve got a problem. We’ve got a problem. There is a problem. This is the problem.
I’d consider making a tag and naming it “fandom drama”, but I want to starve the beast, not feed it.
Fandom has given me yet another reason not to want to actively participate in it, as though I needed more.
Through the friends that I continue to have in the Supernatural fandom, I’ve learned about a girl named Amber who is convinced that Misha Collins (actor who plays Castiel from seasons four through fifteen) is her “twin flame”, which amounts to true love… or something like that. Having met him once at a convention, she’s proud of the fact that she has since Tweeted him more than five thousand times — I’m sure he’s muted her at this point, or someone that handles him or his social media has. I know that would drive me out of my mind if I were him. She’s also sent him… perverse and sexually graphic Tweets over the course of these last six months alone, and her Tweets have taken on a definite stalkerish tone that has made everyone who has read them uncomfortable. All major conventions know about her and she is not allowed to attend them. Jared and Jensen’s bodyguard — Clif — knows about her in case she does manage to show up to something. Misha’s handlers and security know about her. Misha himself knows about her. This is the point to which it has gotten. But the worst thing of all? She’s lost custody of her three children over the severe, untreated mental illness that she is exhibiting with all of this, and she doesn’t seem to care one bit that she’s done so.
Most recently, she destroyed her phone in a fit of rage after Misha posted video footage to his social media accounts of him hanging out with fans after the premiere of the newest show he’s on, Gotham Knights. She may also have harmed herself in the process. These are in no way actions that a rational, sane individual would take, and although I want her to get help for herself so that she can be back to herself and regain custody of her children (if that is even a possibility at this point), I don’t know if that’s something that is even possible at this point because she is so far gone and seems so resolutely unwilling to seek actual help…
People like her exist on the periphery of some fandoms, and they make me not want to participate in them.
They make me not want to show up to conventions or other gatherings to celebrate things that we all like.