December 18th 2020 archive

I can’t believe that I haven’t mentioned this.

One of the reasons that I see myself so readily in Dean Winchester, and one of the reasons that he is my favorite Winchester brother and one of my all-time favorite characters in the show, is because I can see why someone might get it into their head “oh, I’ll die young anyway”. Some of my disabilities come with the price tag of a possibly shortened life because they are ones that I could actually die of. For the longest time, I used to joke off-handedly about that, and I had “made my peace” with a shortened lifespan. In very large part, Dean Winchester’s character changed that for me, and I decided that I wanted to live as long as I possibly could. In doing so, I didn’t want to actively worry about potentially having a shortened lifespan. And then Dean, who always said that he knew that he would die on the job or during a hunt, does exactly that… owing to a very rookie mistake and Sam’s refusal to summon aid for him, which could have saved his life had he done so. Our lives, no matter what we struggle with, are worth living. Shame Andrew Dabb disagrees…