Posts Tagged ‘life’

29
Oct
2022

This bears repeating again because it’s still true.

categories: personal, television shows; word count: 515 words

It’s been… I don’t even know how many weeks at this point since I quit the Discord “reunion” servers that I was invited to, the ones with people that I had grown up with, and I continue to be happy that no attempts have been made to invite me back to already existing servers or new ones (matters might have been helped out by the fact that I deleted people from my friends’ list on Discord, making it more difficult to contact me, having done so for this reason). But I continue not to miss being in any of them, and I can’t realistically see myself wanting to join them again for any reason. This doesn’t seem like something that’s going to change, even though I’ve heard it said in situations like these — and when it comes to fandoms — that you “can’t leave” groups like these. And then, when I don’t want to be a part of these groups any longer, I do, and some people are actually surprised that I’ve done it, committed to it, and doubled down on it. (But why? Seriously?)

And like I’ve said, I’ve done it with fandoms as well, although for slightly different reasons (although my willingness to commit not to participate in fandom activities as they are more or less known to be is the same, and is something that I am continuing to be willing to commit to). I dislike the whole “you can never leave fandom once you join it” phrase that is almost a catchphrase at this point, seeing it more like a jeer than anything else, and I really dislike the expectation that you have to agree with “your people” on all issues 100% of the time or you are Not Doing It Good Enough and Should Be Blocked — for instance, I’m still not watching The Winchesters (the prequel to Supernatural), simply because it doesn’t address anything that I’m particularly interested in watching a television show about. I’m not jeering at or making fun of the people who are interested in watching it, though. It’s just… not my thing, although if I wind up tuning in at a later date I wind up tuning in at a later date. I’ve also fallen out of the habit of reading fanfiction at this point, simply because my time has become occupied by other things and the only times I’ve actually taken the time to think about it have been times when I’ve noticed that I just haven’t read it in a really long time. Truth be told, when I had to reload our gaming PC I didn’t even log back into Archive Of Our Own, and it’s been almost a year since I have. It’s not out of malice or anything, either. I just want to spend my time doing other things and there is only so much time in a day, and I burn out if I have to talk about things for hours, days, weeks, or months on end. I need to be able to walk away from them under even the best of circumstances.

27
Oct
2022

I promise that I will be getting to these posts!

categories: personal; word count: 308 words

So, for those of you who might be or have been confused whose picture I posted for yesterday’s Wordless Wednesday, it was a picture of my late paternal grandmother, who someone on Ancestry actually uploaded a picture of not too long ago. She died three years before I was born, not even outliving her own mother (who I met when I was a young child), so for that reason I don’t regret having taken Ancestry and 23andMe tests… their ethnicity estimates could have been a lot more accurate when it came to what each of them estimated for me, but they’ve connected me with several worthwhile family members. However, putting together my family tree on Ancestry confirmed how one of my parents was… conceived, which I will be writing about in subsequent posts with plenty of content warnings, because my relation to that entire side of the family tree is not something that they can ignore for those of them that knew about it that might have been deluding themselves into thinking that the conception of that parent was something that said parent’s other parent was making up. (I’m not quite sure how to word this without going into more detail about it than I want to in this post, and it’s something that’s going to require a lot of content warnings, but the sheer number of people that Ancestry has proven that I am related to from that side of the family — those family members — is irrefutable proof that it actually happened, and most of the people who were involved in this… situation are now deceased, so I don’t have a problem with writing about it in here at some point. I don’t.)

I have a whole list of posts that I’d like to devote more time to… making, and writing about, that I will get to.

25
Oct
2022

Just how many people did you intend on misting?

categories: personal; word count: 299 words

If a project that you’re working on is as “above water” as you claim it is, you wouldn’t have to change the name of the project — all while changing nothing else, mind — once you know that people have well-founded concerns with the legality of the project. You also wouldn’t have to gloat that people who worked for the original project decades ago “were happy that you were bringing it back”, because everyone already knows that there has been random support of former employees of the original project since you were touting yours as a “passion project” meant to bring that one back… that, again, everyone thought was being done in a manner that was above water. (I’m not even going to get into the part about “we got invited to an employee party” or whatever, because not even I am drinking enough Kool-aid to make that believable.) Copyright violation is copyright violation. Theft of intellectual property is theft of intellectual property. If you’re making money off of it, which you are via Patreon and have had a previous developer admit to — that the Patreon account actually funds the developers rather than what it was publicly stated to have been developed, which was the project’s server — you can’t claim application of fair use laws, and you can’t claim abandonware on a project that currently has a current version out, which this one actually does (2022 on).

The only good thing to come from all of this is that discussing it with various other streamers caused them to come to the same conclusion (not abandonware, not applicable use of fair use laws, not even actual use of fair use laws, would not be a good idea to continue to be a part of), which is one reason why I bailed from it.

23
Oct
2022

I told you all that I would get around to these posts…

categories: personal; word count: 358 words

Most people do this the other way — they claim that kratom (why did WordPress try to auto-correct this to tomato? why?) is less safe to take than phenibut, and they attempt to sell people on how much safer they think phenibut is. But that isn’t something that I do, nor is it something that I will ever do. Continue reading.

I will never recommend phenibut to anyone for any reason. It has shown up on people’s death certificates as the primary cause of death — phenibut toxicity, or polypharmacy with phenibut as the primary contributor — cascading from there, but phenibut is the primary problem in these cases and has been the primary cause of death. For those of you who don’t know what phenibut is, it is a nootropic that is currently legal in all states in the United States (where I live) and is commonly taken for anxiety, depression, and in some instances insomnia to help people sleep. Although many people claim that phenibut is well-tolerated, it is a full agonist of the GABA-B receptor — this means that it crosses the blood-brain barrier — and tolerance is very easily developed to this drug, meaning that people inadvertently add more to whatever dose it is that they are taking, and this quickly has the potential to become dangerous. People can add one pill to their regimen and swiftly pass out, go into a coma, and then die. All of this can happen over taking one more pill.

Some people also have seizures before they get to the point where they enter a coma and… you know.

I’m actually surprised that more research hasn’t been done into this by the FDA and that more movement hasn’t been made to schedule phenibut. When I get to writing about kratom in here this is probably going to make sense to more of you, but the heightened risks in comparison to almost everything that I could and more than likely would write about in here coupled with the failure to even take interest in phenibut (other countries have) continues to boggle my mind. Sadly it might take more deaths to get the States’ attention.

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