It’s been nearly two years since my mom died from complications of cancer.

I’ve written about why we didn’t have a relationship at the end of her life in here, and I continue to feel the same way. The only difference, which is a good thing, is the fact that I no longer clearly remember having a mother. In a way it’s like she was never “around” to begin with due to how much I’ve actually forgotten about her. I did mention in here that my end goal was to completely forget about her, and I feel like I’m really making progress toward that goal. Whenever I see pictures of her on Facebook or from TimeHop, I look at them and have the most difficult time even placing when they happened because I just don’t remember it.

I’ve continued to get rid of things that she got me whenever I see them in my room or around the house.

I bought the kids a slightly damaged but still functional and usable Aggro Crag award from someone authentic who sells various Nickelodeon items. Both of them really like it, which is a win in my book.

I also bought myself a few more pairs of cyberlox.

In addition, I bought a few more candles for my altar for decoration. They look really pretty.

I bought myself a few more face masks to wear since we are still in a pandemic.

I bought Bub a PlayStation 5 from a scalper that was selling it for a decent price. It has a disc drive, too!

I also bought myself some makeup from EM Cosmetics since I like their makeup.

As I continue to spend the stimulus money on various things I’ll post about it in here.

For health reasons and personal reasons, I do not want to get and stay pregnant again.